Ella Wheeler Wilcox
Ella Wheeler Wilcox
Someone once said to me, that it seems like I never get scared.
Wow what an assumption and I wonder what I did to give off that impression.
I had to tell this person that she’s WRONG, that I do get scared.
I get the same yucky symptoms as everyone else. My stomach starts to turn, I worry, and I’ve made myself sick from being so scared.
Ya it use to be bad, the worse part is, I didn’t know I felt the way I did because I was scared, I use to think, that’s just how I felt on that day.
But through time I was able to zone in on the symptoms of being scared.
I’ve learned that fear is an interesting energy and if you allow it to, it will suck you dry, and it will keep you one place.
I’ve learned through experience, that it doesn’t matter what is presented to me, if I’m scared 50% or 100% that I have to try.
And I’ve also learned that I CAN’T do this thing called life by myself, I need guidance and support. That guidance and support comes from my friends, family and the divine power.
So when I feel scared, I acknowledge it.
But I will fight fear to the end.
I’ve made a promise to myself, that I will NOT allow fear to hold me.
With that said, here is a little story of something that happened.
I swear to you its true.
I woke up one day, and I felt sick because I had a lot to do, and I was worried about all of it. And I said to myself “I don’t want to get up, I’m scared, because there is soooooo much to do, and what if I can’t flipping do it”
And I swear to you, I heard a voice in my head, loud as can be said “Don’t be scared”
I stayed in bed for a while, talking to that voice, and it encouraged me to start my day, that it will take care of the rest, I do what I can do, and it will do the rest.
I got up and started my day.
I needed to hear that voice at that particular moment. Because we all need a picker upper. So off I went, knowing that I have to try.
And maybe that’s what this person seen, the one that said it seems like I’m never scared.
She seen the after math. She seen the work of something greater than me. Because if it was left up to me, I would have stayed in bed, too scared to try and I wouldn’t have written this. She seen me trying and doing. And I’m able to do that because I have family, friends and a greater power fighting fear with me.
Don’t let fear hold you back. We all experience being scared but don’t let it hold you.
“The only real prison is fear, and the only real freedom is freedom from fear.”
~ Aung San Suu Kyi
After many nights of thinking and contemplating, I’ve decided to start planning my companies 1st Dance and Entertainment Showcase. It’s called Night of Essence. And the first theme is “She Rocks”. This night is for the ladies to showcase their amazing talent. From Dance, Music, Spoken, Word, Comedy and more.
Being a women, I know the importance it is that we are free to express ourselves and our raw creativity.
This is an exciting process. One that brings back memories of planning the Alter Ego Cabaret show, but there is a difference.
The Night of Essence Dance and Entertainment showcase is special because it’s all about the performers, it’s all about giving individuals, groups and companies the mature platform they need to share their talent. The Alter Ego Cabaret show was a creative story, a story about the different personalities that we carry around everyday.
But it was from the Alter Ego that inspired me to create Night of Essence, it was the dancers, the singers and the audience that brought on the inspiration.
I’m excited, and I can’t wait for May 29th, 2011.
But before then, there is so much that has to be done. It’s always a journey, one that reveals so much about life, dance, music, myself and people.
I can’t wait to see the amazing ladies, I can’t wait to see them at the audition, and at the show doing their thing. It’s called Night of Essence because it’s a night of pure and absolute freedom of expression, and that’s the kind of essence we want to carry with us through life. We all want to be free.
So I’m here, with my cup of tea, and ready to put in a few hours of work on this cold and snowy Sunday morning.